'Ashwathama udaas hai'

Main bachpan mein doodh nahi pi saka
aate(flour) mein paani hi mila glass mein
Dekho main kaun hu
main peeda ka van hu
main shrapit hu
main peedit hu

Peeda ajar hai...amar hai
sukh bik gaya hai abhi abhi
main krishn nahi
main abhi bhi jeevit hu
ranbhumi mein bhi hu
garbh mein bhi

Aao jhaanko mere andar
dekho ye teheniya kahan badh chali
wo dekho anginat saanp k bacche narmada k tat par
wo bachpan k anaam bacche kuchalte hue kechue ko

Dhyaan se dekho krishn
humari nayi khoj..
camera phone hai

Its about those stairs

Other day it so happened, i was a watching a video i made on my father and i felt helpless sitting far away from ma parents. And then me..ma frnds talked about it, i shared why it sensitized me. It is sumthn which shud not be absent even in devliest minds. But its unfortunate for broods I wud say if they do not experience the joy of respect, love and givin them happiness. It makes u feel complete and a human if we could repay atleast iota of what they have done for us. And may be even not abt repayin,like dey do coz we were their children now dey are ours.It shud be dis feeling after a point of time dat now we are a step ahead. Its not the time dat we expect from them,now the time is to understand them like a kid, pat them sometimes, kiss on their forehead, lay our fingers in their hair when they are sad and find innocence in their stubborn choices sometimes. We are their part...part of our mother...our father.

The wounds

The black holes in our original wholess renewed time and again. Once a beautiful surprise to us, now a case to be healed. Our emotions now limit the range of responses. Serenity is far away. Mind is no more a beautiful pond. Opaqueness and translucency are passions of past. What we have with us now are torn pieces of virues. We are all going to die and one day our planet would evaporate and disappear. But somethings that would remain forever are the wounds of suffering..the wounds encrusted with rock.

I found

Become a lover, not of somebody in particular, just become a lover in general. It shall not be just a relationship with somebody because whenevr love becomes a relationship it includes one but excludes the whole universe. I know whole world belongs to me and i belong to the world. I ought to act and choose if I could be grateful to the whole universe. If love as a meditation is followed then it is not focused on any object but it is just a state of being. I know these forms but where does the truth lie, i dunno...
Can I practice that love where nothing confies it, when it is unlimited...well, here i have to decide what is more important for me. Being center of the universe or just a small atom of it.
Conflicts come now and then in this shifting mechanism..I havnt got the result yet..
Lets see.

Wahan...unke peeche

Band darwaazo ke peeche
Jaane kitne ghar roz jalte hain
Kabhi kabhi raakh milti hai
tou kabhi phaili hui raakh par bane hue pairo ke nishan hi dikhte hain

Darwaazo ko band karte hue
kabhi kuch aankhe dikhti hain
phir kisi din wo aankhen
bin paani sadak par kahi padi milti hain

Peeche ki cheekho ka sira kabhi mila tou
kuch nahi hua bus,
aawao ka jhund badhta hua dikha
badhte hue gali se guzar gaya

Darwaaze kabhi khulenge lagta tou nahi
kabhi koi khula reh gaya tou
milega tou wohi sab
andhere mein kone par baithee hui Bina aur kuch kapde

Shayad isiliye in galiyo mein kabhi
andhera nahi hota
bus diye bujh jaate hain
kuch kamro mein ek waqt ke baad...

Days of world around me

Days are passing with much light.I am questioning my true instincts for my future life.How do i see it, i cannot draw but may dream/plan. Films have become my support system but i do feel scared of the abnormalities the life finds here. I can see myself changing everyday with a different Kasme-vaade with myself and about my life. The beginning is crucial and also the matured learning of life, history, psychology, traditions, relations, society etc. Philosophy seems to be one of my favourites and hence i would like my films to be close to philosophical realism. Books are necessary as well as interaction with various lives. Lets see, i am working on a script, very sensitive, rural atrocities, human mind and much more. I'll start the shoot soon once i start finding it close to the earth
But i am happy, this phase is interesting not very pleasing though but i am learning...