Days of world around me

Days are passing with much light.I am questioning my true instincts for my future life.How do i see it, i cannot draw but may dream/plan. Films have become my support system but i do feel scared of the abnormalities the life finds here. I can see myself changing everyday with a different Kasme-vaade with myself and about my life. The beginning is crucial and also the matured learning of life, history, psychology, traditions, relations, society etc. Philosophy seems to be one of my favourites and hence i would like my films to be close to philosophical realism. Books are necessary as well as interaction with various lives. Lets see, i am working on a script, very sensitive, rural atrocities, human mind and much more. I'll start the shoot soon once i start finding it close to the earth
But i am happy, this phase is interesting not very pleasing though but i am learning...